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11.11.19 Winter’s Release

11.11 is a day where I’ll be wishing for all the things. And a day that I already know at least one wish will most definitely come true. It’s the day that Winter will finally be released into the world!

It has been a long time coming. Nobody knows that better than me.

A little over two years ago I fell in LOVE with Jackson Raines. I’m hoping that in a few weeks you will too.

Jackson Raines was a character that was never supposed to exist. His book was never supposed to happen. I’ve said all of this a few times now – most recently in the Author’s Note I wrote in the back of Winter – but I am saying it again here. Because it’s important. I was done playing in the world of Liam and Samantha, Connor and Riley, Aiden and Allie, Ryan and Beth. I was done. Finished. Hell, I was done with writing series books altogether. It would never happen again. All the connections and details you had to remember and get right throughout all the books. The secondary characters that take over sometimes that have you wanting to push one story aside to write another because they were pulling at you. And in all different directions. All of it. I was done. Jax wasn’t happening. He and his friends weren’t going to be anything more than stories in my head. The spinoff book? No. The series? No. All the connections? The twists? The turns? The surprises? The upside-downs? The reappearances of all the characters that I love so much and that are a very real part of me? No. Just no. No Jax. No Sky. And definitely no Jenks, Livvie, Reed, Emma, Knox, or Rina. No new setting of Inked like Mollys or The Brew. No new first loves, second chances, broken-hearts or happily-ever-afters set in the same time and place as the characters I was finally ready to let go of. No. No. No. No. No.

But Jackson Raines said YES. And then I did too. Because I mean … Jackson Raines.

One day when I was trying to finish Ryan and Beth’s story, which is book four in the Beauty Series, I had a scene I was trying to work through so I could write the chapters after that one specific part. I needed Beth to go and complete one of the “firsts” on her list – so I could get to one of my favorite parts of the story. And I really, really wanted to write that part of the story. I just needed her to get her tattoo so I could move on. It was supposed to be a quick in and out. But then I was writing about Ryan knowing this character – he was a close friend, he knew Ryan since high-school so he knew things about him that he could tell Beth and tease Ryan, he was gorgeous and flirty which would mess with Ryan too as an added bonus – and I was writing and writing and before I knew it I was opening a new document and writing this sexy-as-sin, dimples-for-days, eyes-the-color-of-winters-chaos, rips-and-holes, blacks-and-grays, tattoos-and-piercings type character who completely stole my heart and mind. And the next few years of my life. Because along with him came a full story. And friends that would map out the next three books after. A freaking series.

A new series.

What started as me leaving my writing room because of some chaos going on around me and not being able to concentrate anymore … yeah … it turned into me not concentrating on Beth and Ryan for a while because I was concentrating on Jax. And who he was. Who he’d fall for. What her story would be. His friends. Who I could pair them up with. What were their stories. And all the surprise little connections between all the characters. Beauty Series and Seasons Series characters.

Within days it wasn’t just Jax’s story that was mapped out and set. It was all of them. 4 books. I had characters, plot-lines, and even scenes written for four books. A freaking series. And I couldn’t wait to dive in. Even though I said another series = NO.

But I did dive in.
And now Jax’s story is complete.
A little over two years later.
TWO. YEARS.

As I said … Within a day I had his whole story mapped out. Within the next few I had a whole series. I don’t know how it all happened. But I had a Jax and Sky, a Jenks and Livvie, a Reed and Emma, a Knox and Rina, and in some ways they all had ties to a character or a couple from the series I thought I was done with.

I had all these new stories, a new dynamic, and so many words that I wrote down in that first day and then the weeks, months and years (because it’s been two years already!) that followed – words that killed me and made me love love and always and forever all the more. In the moment when I had to leave my writing room I was beyond mad. And now I have a brand-new story to give all of you. Brand-new stories! And I am the happiest I’ve ever been with my writing. I LOVE Jax and Sky. But I also really, really, really love all these new characters (and old characters that are finally getting their stories like Jenks and Livvie). I am also REALLY loving the glimpses into the lives of the characters I was supposed to leave behind – seeing them in the future with their families and the new paths they’re on.

Winter has a few appearances by some of our favorites.
And Spring? Spring has even more!

And I would know because *surprise* I am more than a third of the way done with Spring! I have over 100 pages written – and so many notes and scenes piled up that will take me through the rest of the book.

And I would LOVE to tell you more about Spring right now – but this is supposed to be about Winter and it’s finally being done and released into the world … but maybe soon I’ll post an exclusive excerpt of the first chapter. And what a chapter. Like nothing I’ve ever written. Sort of like Winter.

I’m finding it that this whole new series is like nothing I’ve ever written and that’s a GREAT thing!

But for now, I’m going to leave you with … Winter comes out 11.11.19. Spring comes out Spring 2020. Teasers are on the front page of my website … click them in the slider to see them all in detail. An exclusive excerpt of Winter is on the excerpts page (Seasons Series). I’ve updated the FAQ and the FUN Facts and pretty much everything else on my page. Twitter and Instagram and FB are my go-to – especially Twitter … so check it out.

And also? I lied.

I’m going to post the exclusive excerpt of Spring over on that page now too.
SOOOOOOO enjoy that as well! (*It will be posted below the teaser for Winter because it might be slightly spoilerish – see what I wrote below*).

Once you read Winter it will give you a whole hell of a lot more context to what you’re reading in the Spring except (such as characters and a *surprise* or two even from that first chapter) … so you might want to wait until after Winter’s been read. Cause it is spoilerish!!! You’ve been warned!!!!!!!!!

So yeah.
I think that’s it.

I hope you pick up Winter and if you do, I hope you love Jax and Sky as much as I do … and I hope you love their friends and want to read their stories too!

Hopefully it won’t be a bazillion years before you can!

Anyway … that’s it from me for now.

Until next time!

Happy Reading Everyone!

Tara

 

 

… 2019 & All the Books

2018 … 2019

ALL THINGS JAX AND SKY

(& Jenks & Livvie, Reed & Emma, Knox & Rina)

[AND MY INABILITY TO KEEP SOME PROMISES]

***** I must start out by saying – I am sorry. I am sorry that I have not kept up with you. I am sorry that I will be editing into and using most of my previous blog post because almost nothing has changed, and most of all I am sorry because 2018 will not be the year that Winter  (Jax & Sky’s story)is published like I had hoped. *****

 

***** I must also add that while the above is true, I edited this blog a few weeks ago – since then my tears of frustration are gone and I have found my way (you will know what I mean after you read the post below!!) Jax and Sky’s story will still not be published in the next few weeks – but I don’t think it will be more than a few months until their story is in your hands! And that includes edits being done too!!! So NO more tears over here – just smiles that I am finally writing, writing, writing (I still don’t know what happened – what came over me to get me to write like this and have everything connect itself and all that awesome good stuff, but I am going with it and enjoying it soooo … yay!!!!!  (but still – read my post anyway ) *****

 

So here it goes …

I did say numerous times that it wouldn’t take me months to write my next blog post … and yet it’s been months.

Many, many, many months.

I would love to say that’s because I’ve been busy writing Jax and Sky’s story – and I do have about a quarter of their story written (A bit more pages than the last time I checked in) – but it’s me. I don’t know what my problem is. (I honestly have no clue!)

I am so excited and in love with the story I have in my head for Jax and Sky. And also for Jenks and Livvie, Reed and Emma, Knox and Rina. (I am in even more love with them after writing down numerous scenes and chapters and even more twists and turns – not just for the first book, but for books two, three, and four!) I can still remember the dance I did around the house when these characters came out of nowhere – where their beginnings, middles, and ends became so clear, one thought after another, idea after idea, when all the twists and turns and the surprise connections just screamed at me … I remember laughing like a loon and having a smile on my face for the whole day. Because that’s when it happened. In one day. Jax and Sky immediately had their story mapped out in my head. And then over the next few days I thought about the first chapter I wrote of their story right in the middle of finishing my final book in the Beauty Series – and then bam! I had the next book, and the next, and the next.

And just thinking of what I thought then, and all the thoughts I’ve had after (all the one-liners, the back and forth dialogue, the chapters I have written, the outlines, the connections – all of it) I still have a smile … and I could probably run around like a loon for hours. (Seriously.! I do have a smile. And I have been known to get lost in conversations about these characters, the books, the ideas for hours at a time. I love these characters and all their drama … but all of the ideas, the already written chapters, scenes, one-liners, all the stuff for the other books after Jax and Sky … it’s just not enough!)

And because it’s not enough … Though I can laugh like a loon, and smile forever when I think about what’s going on inside of my head in regards to all things Jax, Sky, Reed, Emma, Jenks, Livvie, Knox, and Rina …  

I’m not going to.

Because there is another side to all of this as well.

I briefly touched upon it …

Getting all these ideas, all these stories out of my head and into a book … it’s HARD.

HARD!

I didn’t have this problem with Unexpected Beauty, Chaotic Beauty, Changed Beauty, or Unbreakable Beauty. I might have thought I did. But I didn’t.

Not even close.

It’s like I am almost afraid to write their story completely because I am afraid the magic of them in my head won’t transcend to what I write down on paper. Does that even make sense?

This story I have planned out for them – for ALL of them – I am doubting I can even do them justice! And they’re my characters. My people. My creation. Is it too cheesy to say that I feel like they’ve become a part of my soul?  

I think THAT’S my problem.

I am doubting.

And I shouldn’t be.

I should have this amazing confidence to tell this story – these stories.

It’s not like I’ve never written before.

This will be my fifth book I am putting into publication.

It’s not my first series.

It is not even the millionth or billionth story I have created in my head in the last 34 years (ugh… almost 35!!!) of living. (Seriously, the stories I have created throughout the years … That number reference definitely might not be a joke!)

It’s not my first time having doubts, fears, all of the emotions I am feeling right now.

But I am doubting everything.

Every. Single. Thing.

Maybe it’s because it’s the first time I am writing a story like the one I have mapped out in my head?

Maybe it’s because these characters are so different than Liam and Sam, Riley and Connor, Allie and Aiden, Beth and Ryan?

Maybe it’s because I am completely starting over with nothing to rely on except myself and my brain and my heart and soul that breathes for this, and I don’t want to crush any of it because all of this means the world?

Too much again?

Too over the top?

Probably.

But it’s still there.

It’s still the truth.

My truth.

Some serious pressure and stuff, huh?

And it is one hundred percent all coming from me.

And it sucks.

I don’t want to get it wrong.

Because I feel like this book – and the next three after it – can be amazing.

A-M-A-Z-I-N-G

I want to be able to say they WILL be amazing!

They ARE amazing!!!!

I want and need to say that, because these characters, their love stories, they are amazing … and I want you, the readers, to feel that way right along with me.

You deserve the story that is in my head, my heart … YES, the story that is in my freaking soul!

You deserve to read that story, to be a part of it, to live it. And hopefully love it!

And my characters deserve it too.

I deserve it.

So, OBVIOUSLY, this book is taking me a lot longer to write than I imagined. A lot longer than any of my previous books. I had hoped that it would be out living and breathing in the world by late Spring, early Summer (of 20-freaking-18) … and now …  (ummmm yeahhhh not happy over here … because that draft isn’t done. It is almost the end of the year and it isn’t done. SO WHAT DOES THAT TELL YOU???)

Then comes the edits, edits, and more edits. So an approximate date? I’m not sure.

Because it’s already DECEMBER, I can’t keep my promises, I can’t seem to get all of my stuff together and write, write, write … soooo

And I mean … LIFE. Life happens too.

Life gets all up in the damn way sometimes. (I mean – Colleen Hoover’s Slammed reference right there people – which tells you, unlike writing I have been reading, reading, reading … currently reading my 104th book of the year and still a few weeks to go …)

But yeah … Life gets all up in the way especially when you finally think you have things figured out and can actually do this shit!

So life, in the damn way, happens too.  Always. And just because.

Sooooo …

2018? Nope.

2019?

THAT IS ACTUALLY A PROMISE I CAN KEEP!!!

A PROMISE I WILL KEEP!!!

I DO have a cover and have had that for a long time now … so there is THAT.

I have a Jax and a Sky.

I have a Jenks and a Livvie.

I have a Reed and an Emma.

I have a Knox and a Rina/Cat.

I have more than a hundred and thirty pages written.

I have at least a hundred more in notes and various materials just sitting around waiting to be connected.

I also have tons of material for ALL the books. That’s something. Because when I finally get everything together – mostly myself – I am hoping that it just flows like it normally does.

But for right now, with tears in my eyes (seriously … stupid freaking tears … no matter how much ha-ha I tried to throw in there during my edits of this blog, or sarcasm aimed at myself and everything else, or any other thing that shouldn’t bring tears … there are tears. Because I promised things, and I broke my promises. To myself. To you. And I haven’t been writing … and everything just sucks) …  & I need to say that I am sorry. AGAIN.

Sorry for delaying this book.

Sorry for taking so long writing it.

Sorry for all this doubt shit.

Sorry for rambling on and on and on and on and on and on.

But I need Jax and Sky’s story to be the BEST that it can be. And I need you all to KNOW that.

Like I said … YOU deserve it, I deserve it, JAX, SKY, JENKS, LIVVIE, REED, EMMA, KNOX, & RINA deserve it.

I will try and keep you posted a lot more than I have about this book and how it’s going. More than I ever have for any of the other books. Because you definitely deserve that. (This is another thing I said before and didn’t do. I will do better. I will be thinking up something fun to post in the teasers/excerpt section soon! Whether it’s a continuation of Chapter One  (so maybe a few new chapters since you’ve all waited long enough and dealt with all of my shit) … or maybe some teasers from this book and the ones after … I’ll have to figure it out!)

If you haven’t read Chapter One yet of Jax and Sky’s story it’s over in the teasers/excerpt page. And like I said above … unlike the other books where I waited until I was almost done or completely done with writing before I started releasing teasers, I am going to start doing that now (soon-ish) as well. A little something for bearing with me through all of this. A little something to show you that Jax and Sky are worth that wait … AND MAYBE I will throw in some teasers of the other couples and their books as well. Because like I said … I have a LOT of material for all of the rest of the books!! I just need to find stuff that isn’t too spoilery!!!

I need to tell you that I am so thankful for you guys and the love you have shown me and my books.

I hope you continue to do so with this next series.

Seriously … these characters and their stories – they are SO worth it.

And I hope more than anything that you’ll be finding out for yourselves soon.

I mean … 2019 is right around the corner!!

Until then enjoy the sneak peek of Jax and Sky’s story … and keep checking back here or on Twitter, Instagram, and Facebook for all the new teasers I will be releasing soon-ish!

Happy Reading Everyone!

Tara

 

 

WINTER … JAX & SKY

ALL THINGS JAX AND SKY 

(& Jenks & Livvie, Reed & Emma, Knox & Rina)

***Also an exclusive sneak peak of Chapter One of Jax & Sky’s story, Winter (Book One of the Seasons Series) over in the Excerpt Page***

I did say it wouldn’t take me months to write my next blog post … and yet it’s been months.

Many, many, many months.

I would love to say that’s because I’ve been busy writing Jax and Sky’s story – and I do have about a quarter of their story written – but it’s me. I don’t know what my problem is.

I am so excited and in love with the story I have in my head for Jax and Sky. And also for Jenks and Livvie, Reed and Emma, Knox and Rina. I can still remember the dance I did around the house when these characters came out of nowhere – where their beginnings, middles, and ends became so clear, one thoughts after another, idea after idea, when all the twists and turns and the surprise connections just screamed at me … I remember laughing like a loon and having a smile on my face for the whole day. Because that’s when it happened. In one day. Jax and Sky immediately had their story mapped out in my head. And then over the next few days I thought about the first chapter I wrote of their story right in the middle of finishing my final book in the Beauty Series – and then bam! I had the next book, and the next, and the next.

And just thinking of what I thought then, and all the thoughts I’ve had after (all the one-liners, the back and forth dialogue, the chapters I have written, the outlines, the connections – all of it) I still have a smile … and I could probably run around like a loon for hours.

But I’m not going to.

Because there is another side to all of this as well.

Getting all these ideas, all these stories out of my head and into a book … it’s HARD.

HARD!

I didn’t have this problem with Unexpected Beauty, Chaotic Beauty, Changed Beauty, or Unbreakable Beauty. I might have thought I did. But I didn’t.

Not even close.

It’s like I am almost afraid to write their story completely because I am afraid the magic of them in my head won’t transcend to what I write down on paper. Does that even make sense?

This story I have planned out for them – for ALL of them – I am doubting I can even do them justice. And they’re my characters. My people. My creation.

I think THAT’S my problem.

I am doubting.

And I shouldn’t be.

I should have this amazing confidence to tell this story – these stories.

It’s not like I’ve never written before.

This will be my fifth book I am putting into publication.

It’s not my first series.

It is not even the millionth or billionth story I have created in my head in the last 34 years of living. (Seriously, the stories I have created throughout the years … That number reference definitely might not be a joke!)

It’s not my first time having doubts, fears, all of the emotions I am feeling right now.

But I am doubting everything.

Every. Single. Thing.

Maybe it’s because it’s the first time I am writing a story like the one I have mapped out in my head?

Maybe it’s because these characters are so different than Liam and Sam, Riley and Connor, Allie and Aiden, Beth and Ryan. Maybe it’s because I am completely starting over with nothing to rely on except myself and my brain and my heart and soul that breathes for this and I don’t want to crush any of it because all of this means the world.

Too much?

Probably.

But it’s still there.

Some serious pressure and stuff.

And it is one hundred percent all coming from me.

And it sucks.

I don’t want to get it wrong.

Because I feel like this book – and the next three after it – can be amazing.

A-M-A-Z-I-N-G

I want to be able to say they WILL be amazing.

They ARE amazing.

I want and need to say that, because these characters, their love stories, they are amazing … and I want you, the readers, to feel that way right along with me.

You deserve the story that is in my head, my heart, my freaking soul.

You deserve to read that story, to be a part of it, to live it. And hopefully love it!

And my characters deserve it to.

I deserve it.

So, OBVIOUSLY, this book is taking me a lot longer to write than I imagined. A lot longer than any of my previous books. I had hoped that it would be out living and breathing in the world by late Spring, early Summer … and now … I will just be happy if I have the first draft done by then. Because then comes the edits, edits, and more edits. So a an approximate date? I’m not sure.

2018? DEFINITELY.

Fall? PROBABLY.

Late Summer? MIRACLE????

But I DO have a cover … there is THAT.

I have a Jax and a Sky.

I have a Jenks and a Livvie.

I have a Reed and an Emma.

I have a Knox and a Rina/Cat.

And I also have tons of material for ALL the books. That’s something. Because when I finally get everything together – mostly myself – I am hoping that it just flows like it normally does.

But for right now, with tears in my eyes (seriously … stupid freaking tears), I need to say that I am sorry.

Sorry for delaying this book.

Sorry for taking so long writing it.

Sorry for all this doubt shit.

Sorry for rambling on and on and on and on and on and on …

But I need Jax and Sky’s story to be the BEST that it can be. And I need you all to KNOW that.

Like I said … YOU deserve it, I deserve it, JAX, SKY, JENKS, LIVVIE, REED, EMMA, KNOX, & RINA deserve it.

I will try and keep you posted a lot more than I have about this book and how it’s going. More than I ever have for any of the other books. Because you definitely deserve that.

And starting now, like I said above before I went and on and on and on and on, I am releasing the first chapter of Jax and Sky’s story.  And unlike the other books where I waited until I was almost done or completely done with writing before I started releasing teasers, I am going to start doing that now as well. A little something for bearing with me through all of this. A little something to show you that Jax and Sky are worth that wait … AND MAYBE I will throw in some teasers of the other couples and their books as well. Because like I said … I have a LOT of material for all of the rest of the books as well.

I am so thankful for you guys and the love you have shown me and my books.

I hope you continue to do so with this next series.

Seriously … these characters and their stories – they are SO worth it.

And I hope more than anything that you’ll be finding out for yourselves soon.

Until then enjoy the sneak peek of Jax and Sky’s story … and keep checking back or around (Twitter, Instagram, Facebook) for all the new teasers I will be releasing soon!

Happy Reading Everyone!

Tara

 

 

Endings & Beginnings

End of a series. New beginnings.

Editing Unbreakable Beauty was extremely hard for me. Not because of what was written. But because it is the final book in the series. I knew that when I was fully done – with the edits, with tweaking the cover and the back description, with acknowledging those who have helped me so much along with way, with fine-tuning every single aspect of the book cover to cover – that’d be it. Not only would I be done with Ryan and Beth’s story, I’d be done with Samantha and Liam, Connor and Riley, Aiden and Allie. And knowing that, it was hard. Before, I always knew that I would be writing for them again. I knew that we’d always have each of the characters throughout the remainder of the series … and now?

Now I need to let them go.

And man … Thinking about how I ended things with all of them … I feel like I could explore these characters forever. Even now I am thinking about Liam and his dimples and how they still affect Sam. How she still blushes. I am thinking about all the funny, bickering dialogue I could create for Riley and Connor, because it’s just so completely Riley and Connor. And Aiden and Allie? I want to create so much more happy for them. They deserve all the happy. I want so many more moments for all of them. And Ryan and Beth? More than any of my other couples, I want to see where they’re at in ten years, twenty. We all know they are getting their happily-ever-after … But I want to be taken on the ride.

But it will have to be enough for me to know that they will all get there. I say it in all my stories. Always. Forever. All the in-betweens. Of which there will be ups and downs, dips and turns, bit it’s life. And that’s all each of them wanted. They wanted to live life, love, laugh. Experience. And they will. They are. And they’ll be together throughout all of it. Forever. Always.

So I am content with that.

In my Author’s Note at the back of Unbreakable Beauty I talk about Ryan and Beth and their story. I wrote, “It’s my favorite [book]. I love Ryan and Beth together. I love their story. From the beginning of it in Chaotic Beauty, until now. They gave me a ton of laughter, some tears, they gave me very heated cheeks and a few wicked smiles, they gave me closure … and they also opened a door. They gave me Jackson Raines.”

Which leads us to the new beginnings.

In the last blog post I talked about writing a character in Unbreakable. He came out of nowhere. He was never supposed to be a character that had dialogue. He was never supposed to be interesting. He was never supposed to capture my attention so completely that I not only mapped out his whole entire story, but a whole series. I’m talking four books are already outlined – beginning, middle, and end. I have chapters already written for Jax’s story. I have chapters written for the others.

I have A LOT going on.

A lot that I am excited about.

I cannot wait to share what has been going on over here with this new series. And there is a lot to tell you.

But in a few weeks.

After I reveal my cover for Unbreakable. After a few weeks of getting Unbreakable out there in the world a bit more than I have been because I’ve been so busy writing, editing, living life.

Trust me though … I cannot wait to unleash Jax, Reed, Knox, Jenks, Sky, Livvie, Rina, and Emma on you. These characters … and their stories …

I am not going to say any more.

Not yet.

But this is a special time for me.

The closing of one chapter, the beginning of another. It just so happens that the closing of one chapter ended with the words “The End” (the end of those characters, the end to that series) and the other starts a whole new book. A whole new series. A whole new everything.

It’s starting to finally hit me; what I’ve accomplished, what I have, what I gained, what I have to “let go” and put on a shelf, or keep in my mind.

Sometimes I like to describe as my books having *all the feels* or my characters going through all of them … well … that’s me right now.

I am happy that Ryan and Beth are Ryan and Beth. I am happy with this whole series. And I am also happy getting down to business on the new one.

So that’s what I am going to do.

I am going to go and write.

And hopefully it’s not months again before I check in and let you all know what’s been going on.

Actually I know it won’t be … because I have a lot more fun things coming up with regards to Ryan and Beth … I have teasers … I have the beginning of their book that I am going to be posting … so there is still more… And like I said … soon I will be posting about the new series. And also a teaser from that as well. Most likely the whole first chapter!

So keep checking back!

These next few weeks and months will have a lot of info about the new series and a lot of exclusive sneak peeks!

Until next time! Happy Reading!

xoxo

The End of the Series

**** A few spoilers ahead  … You might not want to read if you have not read the previous books in the series****

 

The End.

Those were the hardest words to type, not only at the end of Ryan and Beth’s book (Unbreakable Beauty), but throughout the whole series. And there have been a lot of things I have written throughout the series. The aftermath of Sam’s attack in Unexpected Beauty. The aftermath of Connor getting shot in Chaotic Beauty. Aiden telling Allie what happened to him when he was younger, her doing the same, finding out what happened to Elizabeth after Aiden left her and also what happened to her at the end of Changed Beauty. There have been many things I have written that have made me cry, made me feel gutted and sick for days, but nothing quite like writing “The End” at the end of this story.

Because it is the end.

For years I have had Samantha and Liam, Connor and Riley, Aiden and Allie, and Ryan and Elizabeth in my head. Having conversations, getting into fights, getting themselves into trouble, loving, being happy – all of it. They felt real – and in some way that is hard to explain – they are real for me. And maybe they always will be. But knowing that it’s the end – I still feel a bit sad by the final few words of the story.

It’s taken me TWO WEEKS to sit and write that I am done. Normally I would have been shouting it to the world by now (Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, out the windows of my house) – I would have been elated , I would have felt like I owned the world – and maybe eventually I will feel like that. Maybe on the day of publication I’ll feel celebratory … Or maybe it will be even harder at that time because I can’t go back and change anything then. At least now before edits and during edits I still get to play in their world. But soon I won’t be. Soon it won’t just be the end – soon I will have to let them go…

And I don’t know how I feel about that.

I always knew that there would be a Samantha and a Liam, I knew Connor would have his own story, I knew Aiden would too … but Ryan? He wasn’t a character in my head until I wrote him on the page. But as soon as I did – as soon as Liam had a best-friend with that “interesting” reputation that was talked about so eloquently by Connor (ha-ha) I knew Ryan would most likely (definitely) get a book. And now he has one.

And it’s my favorite.

I guess it should be my favorite considering it’s the last one in this series, I’ve been writing scenes for Ryan since book one, then even more scenes for him once I wrote Elizabeth into book two and I knew without a doubt that they’d be together (it’s been a LONG time coming – and for me the anticipation was huge) …

But you all know that for a long time, no matter who came before, or who came after, Connor’s been my favorite male … I’ve not been shy about saying that … but Ryan? With Elizabeth? Hands down favorite couple! And Ryan may have edged out Connor for the top spot of my characters. Did I just write that? Did I? I almost feel like hitting the backspace button … but I am keeping what I just said … because Ryan definitely is something special. And together with his Beth … ahhhhhh!

But it’s not just them …

In this book we get to see all the couples, what they’re doing now, hints at what they’ll be doing in the future – this book is just different all around when the couples are together … This book just has a feel about it … It has *all the feels* … And that’s what probably makes this so much harder on me…

But I am not giving anything away. You’ll have to read and see if you agree – about all of it!

This has been a long journey… not just for me … but for you too!

But it’s not over.

I didn’t know where I would be at the end of this book. I knew the series was ending. I knew that Sam and Liam’s, Connor and Riley’s, Aiden and Allie’s, and Beth and Ryan’s journey to love and happily-ever-after would be done. But what next? That has already been running through my mind … what next … what now?

For years I have been harboring ideas for other stories … great ideas at the time … but nothing felt *right* when I was getting to the end of Ryan and Beth’s story – all their stories. I have been living in my character’s world for such a long time, I have fallen in love with them as they have fallen in love, I’ve gone on their roller-coaster rides of life with them – I needed something that screamed at me, that fought with me, something that made me fall hard and fast, something that made me say without a doubt – write my story … Because writing a story? It doesn’t only take most of the hours of the day for months at a time – it takes over everything! For months at a time my life becomes my writing … which means giving up a lot. These characters have to be worth it. Because I put a lot on hold for it. What I had in my head before, while seeming like amazing ideas … I knew they weren’t. Not anymore. Not after Sam and Liam. Connor and Riley. Allie and Aiden. And definitely not after Ryan and Beth … And the ending!

I needed more.

I needed something – someone – more than one someone even – to give me ALL the feelings inside of me that I needed, to know that *this* story is *the one.*

I didn’t think it would happen. I thought I would just wait it out until something popped in my head. Which was fine by me. I needed a break anyway. I needed to live some life outside of my writing cave.

But then I wrote about a certain someone in Ryan and Beth’s story. A character that came out of nowhere. I had no notes written about him. No name. No characteristics. Nothing. Until I started that chapter and there he was – it just …happened. I didn’t even know that he would actually have that much dialogue … and then there he was being “that” character.

A character I completely wanted to dive into.

He became a character who knows a few of the main ones from The Beauty Series – but he doesn’t hang out with them frequently, he’s not really connected. He’s someone who isn’t family or a really good friend. He doesn’t run in the same circles. He has no known past already out there (like Ryan, Aiden, or Beth who went into their books with a huge past, or Connor and Riley who already started dating and had a foundation). He doesn’t have a past yet. We don’t truly know anything about him. And we know nothing about *her*. We’ve never met the woman whose going to tangle with him and steal his heart yet!

Well, I have … but you haven’t!

These characters are going to be the main characters in my next book. YES – next book! As in I already started writing this book while I was writing Unbreakable Beauty. As soon as I wrote that character in, I started asking myself who is he – what’s his story … and at the end of that specific chapter in Unbreakable Beauty I created a new document and started writing the first chapter of Winter.

I have a few chapters already written for Winter … though I did put it on hold for a bit because like I said … writing “The End” for Unbreakable Beauty kind of drained me a bit.

And now … because of what I just said/revealed … I think I need to mention it again, or clarify things a bit and say that Winter has nothing to do with The Beauty Series other than the fact that we meet the main character in Unbreakable and he knows a few people from years ago … So this book is NOT a part of the series.

But … I can see how things might arise in the future … because as I sit here and type this my head is creating scenarios of how those words might come around and bite me in the ass one day …

So maybe we can call it a spin-off series???? How about that????

Because as I said, The Beauty Series is at an end. They are over. Sam, Liam, Connor, Riley, Allie, Aiden, Beth, and Ryan’s stories are told. No matter how much it hurts, how unbelievable it is, no matter how much I would love to write them forever – they are done.

And some new stuff is beginning.

And while I have mixed feelings about all of it, letting go and moving on – there are good and exciting feelings mixed in there too … so I know wherever this leads … it will be good!

And even though I stopped for a bit writing Winter, I hope to get back to it soon … Just like I hope to get editing soon on Ryan and Beth. (And I actually mean that this time! Normally I HATE editing – even thinking about editing – but this is the first time I can recall that I am actually looking forward to jumping into the story again!)

I’d love Beth and Ryan’s story to be in your hands soon! We’ll see … I don’t actually have a release date hammered out yet – when I know, you’ll know! I know it’s definitely going to be this year ! So there’s that! I am thinking this summer! Most likely late summer depending upon edits.

I’d also love for Winter to be done this year too and for you to have that in your hands by the end of the year … but once again with edits on Unbreakable Beauty and then writing Winter plus life in general … we’ll see! But it’s my goal! * More info will definitely be coming about – the spin-off series? are we going to really be calling it that? – soon!

But back to edits, and Ryan and Beth. I can tell you that Unbreakable Beauty is not as long as Changed Beauty – that was basically two books in one (seriously, the total amount of words and pages was at least two books) – but it is a bit longer than books 1&2 … at least for now. We’ll see after edits. But my point is – edits shouldn’t take forever for this one!

Unlike the last few months I’ll try and do a better job to keep you posted.  And also start getting out a lot of teasers! I know that’s something I did a lot of while writing Changed Beauty … but I have been awful for this book! But I was writing and writing … And now … Yes, once again … It’s the end!

And I still cannot believe it!

Over these next few weeks I plan on editing like I said, doing teasers, setting up some promotions, working on a book cover, updating my website … and of course, continue writing more of the next book.

It should be a busy next few weeks – next few months. But the more I think about it the more excited I am getting … so maybe I can finally get over the fact that it’s “The End” and start realizing I am starting a new beginning. A new chapter. A new everything!

Anyway … I hope to not be so much of a stranger.

Soooo…

Until next time … Happy Reading!

****And keep a look out for my cover reveal, an exclusive excerpt of Unbreakable Beauty that I will be posting soon, and also a description of the final book in this series! And MAYBE I’ll also post a bit more about Winter!